My Dear Self,
"All those time I saw in the mirror,
I only saw my mere reflection,
failed to feel the friend nearer,
how cold, I didn't give him attention."
Where shall I start? The times that I spent with you? the moments of emotions I shared? all those years I have fooled myself by taking you for granted?
I have apologies which I never tried telling you. I always looked up to distractions. When I feel insane I sought a friend's advice rather than yours. I have ignored you many times. I scrolled through my mobile, watched TV, went out not because I wanted to but to escape feeling my feelings.
Everyone tells spending time with you is ill. And I am not an exception to it and I don't want to justify my mistake. But I realized the truth now. I apprehended the power of spending "me" time. You know what people tell, "A moment of silence can teach you more than an endless lecture." Few minutes of solitary, a world away from the world.
With you, there are no strings attached, no unnecessary expectations, and convincingly no behind my back talks. You are always as you are. And from now on, loneliness will never be obnoxious but a choice I get to pick.
Once in a while, we need to hear, how our inner voice does sound or does it sound? Try speaking to yourself. And trust me you don't need any motivation if you could get that inner voice to speak. Yeah, I know! it is tough. When the going gets tough the tough get going.
Yours Truthfully,
Yogesh Kirubha
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